What is Enough???

We have to acknowledge sometimes that this moment is enough.  This place is enough. I am enough.....SMK

More, more, more....someone is always wanting more. Today is one of those days when I want to have a full on 16 year old temper tantrum, you know the kind I am talking about, I want to stomp down the hallway loudly with my shoes on, slam the door to my bedroom, throw a few stuffed animals at the wall and once my adrenaline has came crashing down ball myself up into the fetal position on my bed and cry myself to sleep. Nothing is ever good enough, there isn't a correct answer in my head, not a task complete timely and I can't solve all the dramatic issues of my 10 year old.  I need a do over day. 

Why isn't it good enough?  In our society it has just become standard to always want more.  Give me Give me.  Give me.  Take. Take. Take.  What happened to just be happy with what you have?  Don't get me wrong, I am not saying we shouldn't strive for more, to become the best version of ourselves - we should.  I just think we lose sight along the way and the need to better ourselves can sometimes turn to this weird form of greed and jealously.  I think some of the best advice my late grandfather ever gave me was to only worry about what is going on with me, not what is going on with everyone else. 

I have to admit, in my younger years, I always compared myself to others asking the age old questions...what do they have that I don't? Why can't I do that?  And even though men want to deny it, this is not something that only females do.  Men size each other up just as much as women do and this behavior is leaking over to our children.  My 10 year old already worries way too much about what the other kids in her class are doing and I find myself repeatedly saying " you worry about you" - when did everything even something as miniscule as what kind of eraser you have become a competition - who cares if she has the scented erasers and big deal if they smell like strawberries (which bums me out cause we never had that stuff when I was 10) - you worry about you.

This morning I woke up with a roof over my head, in a warm house and all my family members are accounted for - shouldn't that be enough?  When I walk into the kitchen I should just be grateful there is something there to eat even if it isn't specifically the granola I want.  What it boils down too is that success has an opposite effect sometimes, the more successful we are the more we want, the more we get the more we want materially. Guilty as charged right here - I do all of this too and I need to stop.  Material possessions are nice and all but we don't always need new once the sparkle has faded.  If today's society put as much time into improving ourselves and doing "me" work as we do into wanting more our children will reap the benefits as much as we will. 

Just strive to be our best and appreciate when we are afforded the best.