Tuesday, April 7, 2015

The Best I Could do....and That's All You Can Do

My to do list for work isn't completed, there are dirty dishes in my sink ready for the dishwasher as soon as I manage to empty the clean ones (if I actually remembered to turn it on yesterday), my laundry baskets are flowing over and do not even get me started on my personal to do list for today...I can't remember where I put it (like that 2 mile jog/fast paced walk was really gonna happen anyway).  Yet here I am, typing away when there are so many other things I should be doing....but that's the thing, SHOULD I be doing them, who made that rule?

Really what kind of accomplishment is it to say, I DID everything today I planned, when you sacrifice little moments in life that means so much, what do we really gain from going at warp speed?  Ferris Bueller had it right..."Life moves pretty fast, if you don't stop and look around once in awhile you might miss it", the kid was genius and not just because he has the most infamous skip day ever.  For those of you reading that do not know this movie reference, please refrain from feeling the need to enlighten on that, no one needs to be reminded of their age, ha.  Point blank it's this, we try to cram so much into our daily routines we often become to stressed or rushed to enjoy those moments that matter.  We miss too much trying to do too much.

I no longer want to be the Mom in the gym that has that has to give her daughter that sheepish look when she asks "mom did you see me hit that shot?" because I was too engrossed in my Blackberry trying to cross just one more thing off that "to do list" for today. In actuality those memories are what going to matter at the end, not if I responded to an email or viewed a spreadsheet, those things will be waiting in the morning, this moment will not be....it'll be gone. You blink and years of missed moments will accumulate.....maybe it's time to put the "to do lists" to rest or make them more realistic. 

Tonight, I spent twenty minutes dancing around the kitchen with my ten year old, very badly might I add, that wasn't on my list, in a minute I will probably cuddle up in my favorite corner of the couch and watch the Women's NCAA Championship (because I couldn't bring myself to watch most of the men's game last night - ha) and listen to my husband officiate and coach the game from the couch - yet again another thing that isn't on my to do list.  I will remember the smile on my daughters face while we danced and she pretended to rap and the laugh of my husband when I ask another ridiculous ( to him anyway) basketball question, what I won't remember is sacrificing these moments to just mark another item off the list. 

Below is my one of my favorite quotes from a book I read,  I often find myself thinking of how true it really is -
The Summer I Turned Pretty

Everyone in my home is fed today, has clean clothes to put on tomorrow and we have a respectable roof over our head and you can somewhat walk through the house, ha - the lists of things to do for work and home can wait, I am busy making memories....I did the best I could do today to get everything done and in reality isn't that all we are really trying to do, the best we can.